So I have decided to quit the reminiscing and move onto the present as living in the past means you often miss what's going on around you today. Strangely enough, my cue to do this was in looking through some pictures while preparing for Christmas. I came upstairs last night to find my wonderful wife tearing up in front of the computer screen as she previewed pictures to be used for Christmas presents. On the screen was a picture of both of our boys in the first five minutes of their lives and it brought back a flood of emotions. So there we sat, glued to the screen as pictures whizzed by and we drifted in and out of the present. As we progressed through each stage of their lives a new set of feelings would bubble up, then we'd look at each other, look down at our sons and marvel at how far they have come.
It has been an interesting road thus far, it has been about two months since we all finally came home from the hospital. A day I will forever remember because it is an instantaneous wake up call. We arrived home, tired but excited and for the first time alone with our babies. Over the next 12 to 24 hours we went through what felt like hell on earth and by we I mean the four of us. The boys were crying constantly, we were struggling to keep it together and I was doubting whether or not I was prepared for all of the sacrifices I would make and challenges I would come up against for the rest of my life. The permanence of fatherhood was finally setting in and I will say that I felt a little confused by the whirlwind my mind was going through. We reached out for help, our parents were great and for the first week or so we got a ton of help. But quickly we grew weary and needed our own space and so we decided to head out on our own...which has worked really well. Now we are the proud parents of two baby boys who are just starting to smile, really enjoying bath time and hopefully will begin to settle into a routine. So oddly enough a quick glimpse at pictures has led me to change up this blog and begin writing about the not so distant past and what's in store for us all as we move forward.
The life lesson I would like you to take my excitable little guys is that life happens so fast and we often spend our days thinking about everything but what is here and now, focusing on the past or the distant future and if we don't stop ourselves every now and then, to look at where we are and what we have, well then we are bound to let those moments slip right by us while only catching a glimpse of what they are and never truly experiencing what they could be. It maybe a sad state of affairs that we have to remind ourselves to take time for each other and to live in the moment but unfortunately that is the reality that many of us face. This makes it incredibly important that you enjoy those moments to the fullest as each day that passes is gone. Keep your view on life open and broad so that you can see as much as possible. There is a time when focus is needed to truly enjoy the beauty of what it is that we all have, but there is also a time when focusing on the wrong thing will mean that something on the periphery is blurred and hazy when it could be so much more. How do you know when to focus and when to open up? Like many things I will tell you, it is a matter of what your heart tells you is important...your job is not to confuse what your heart says with what all those other outside voices are telling you. Live in the now, see the world for all that it is and could be. Love, Dad.
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